| new xanga
www.xanga.com/im_barrie
i feel like i'm moving on, but in a way, i'm not. haha ^-^ |
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| AIM Buddies
There are those few friends of mine that I really go online to talk to. If it weren't for them, I probably wouldn't go on AIM, because a huge majority of the people on my buddy list probably forgot about my screen name or some shit like that. But those special few with whom I truly enjoy talking to on AIM, they are the ones I talk to every day.
I feel a void if there is a day where I don't talk to them, and today is one of those days. Unfortunately they're starting school again in a matter of days and I can't do anything about it but let them do their thing. I think tonight I'm sleeping "early" for once, because there's no one to talk to. =P |
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| Why do I always get emo after retreats?
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| Post-Retreat
LMU's CORE Getaway. It was actually enjoyable this year. I really like the new "batch" of kids on CORE this team, and it made me feel the "family" and become more open.
but it's because of now that I usually don't enjoy retreats.
retreats give me the opportunity to get away...relax..reflect...bond with people...it's just happiness. No worries. Temporary Bliss.
and then I get home and the real world bitch slaps me on the face. Homework and commitments, drama, loneliness, laziness...
shit and all this is going to add up...and the world will bring her hand across my face tomorrow when I wake up and realize all the shit i have to do.
retreats are nice...they hide you from the shit you have to face...but all things come to an end and the disillusionment of life is such a shock. I don't know. I just needed to vent...just a bit |
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| Update 6/15/07
PINKBERRY
so yeah i got a new job @ pinkberry. i get mixed reactions when i tell people about pinkberry. there are the people who have never heard of it. and then there are those who claim to not know what it is...and then 5 seconds later say, 'oooooh yeah i heard about that!" and then there are those who go crazy. The grand opening is today @ the topanga mall. i'm excited for the craziness. =]
SUMMER-NESS
besides pinkberry my summer has been interesting. I attended both alemany's and el camino's proms. but my summer has just been full of drama.
there's drama @ church! who would've thought?! because of that i've had to deal with drunk/high/ and sick friends...furious outbursts and lots of tears. people commend me for sticking by my friend when my friend is "out of whack" but i just don't see why they don't do the same. If I was crying out of anger and saddness and I was under the influence of crazy drugs and alcohol, i sincerely hope that my friends, if anything, will stay by my side and help me, no matter how rediculous the circumstances are.
I just think all this drama is unnecessary and very very destructive. friendships torn apart, self mutilation, etc. etc. ahhh man.
i don't feel like writing anymore |
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